Adventure. When I was little, my sister and I had quite the imaginations (ha just ask my mom!). I loved to pretend. Now my adventures usually consisted of acting out the most resent book or movie my sister had watched (like pretending we were in huge bubbles that could protect us as we traveled to an underwater city or flying across the world on horses or really big eagles), but I think I still carry that imagination. As I get ready to leave for Spain, I have moments of pure excitement and moments of sheer fear. A lot of it deals with my perspective, which was greatly tested this last week.
To make a really long story short...er, a week or so ago I found this bump on the back of my head that was causing a lot of pain. I missed a day of school to go get it checked out; I had a cyst on the back of my head that was causing a constant headache. It didn't go away for a while, and I had to go back into the doctor. He told me it was probably infected. So I was put on antibiotics, a muscle relaxer (which I only took once because it totally knocks me out), and told to go see a dermatologist. The medicine started to help, and then I ended up going into the dermatologist who took an unnaturally huge needle to drain the infection and inject some medicine (all is well now:). Now I don't share that story just to share it. God really used that in my life. I had some days where I really struggled being excited about this trip. I mean I'm going all by myself somewhere where I don't know anyone...basically, I got scared. God in His kindness was showing me how much my perspective can and will effect me. I let physical pain and imaginative fears permeate my mind. As I spent time in prayer and God's Word, He reminded me of who He is ( Eph.1-3 have to be some of my favorite chapters). I prayed God will help me see things the way He wants, and once again I started to really look forward to this ministry opportunity He has for me. Im excited to see what He has to teach me. Im sure there will be hard days, but God has promised to never leave me; He is enough.
I've been going through Exodus in my devotions, and I was really struck with how Moses prayed."Now therefore if I have found favor in Your sight, please show me now Your ways, that I may know You in order to find favor in Your sight." 33:13. That has kind of become my prayer for this trip, that I would know God more so that I can please Him with the life He has given.
So that's what God's been doing in my life, and I am genuinely excited to take off in 9 days.